October 29, 2009

after so long.. here some new *update* i've been dismiss in a long period of time due to my busy schedule and also no ilham on what to blog *hehe* currently me undertook this govt training program with the hope this would give me a good prospect in my future career.

and....

i miss my baby fred so much!
can't wait to see him *blush*


says the diary,
na

the little voices that whisper to my ears

the sky was once blue but it fades to be cloudy and gloomy. maybe i was correct it'd would somehow happen or maybe i was wrong about it. i see the rain drops outside the window as i pushes the curtain to have a glance view to see the outer layer of the beautiful scenery. again again i knew this would happen. maybe what it says is true. a beautiful scenery may look good now and it would turn out gloomy when it is not properly kept. i know i'm strong enough to overcome this and i can alter from bad.. to good but i wasn't too sure with it now. i heard the little voices whisper to my ears, but the volume of the sound was too soft that it fades away...

says the diary,
na

update la

oh dear.......... its been awhile.. i mean it been so long since i last crapping in bloggie. hehe! i was sick. i fall sick over and over again. i don't know why??? -_-' the sad thing i have to eat 6 different kinds of tablet. with many colors. you name it all! i seriously have no idea what has gotten into me this year.. since early this year where i just fall sick non stop.. and it is continuously i tell you! and that is for real!?? *sigh* and the sad thing is after 24 years of my life i got attack by night asthma! every night i'm having a hard time to breath. hard time in breathing is so killing! i cough non- stop at night especially when its cold. means no fan and no air-con! see how bad is it? *sad*

life has been good to me this year *yayness* my 24th birthday this year was great,,, with love ones around despite the fact i was sick that time that i have to bare with it,,, but literally i had a great time. and again he's back and always there for me all the time. he did alot of thing for me and most of all,,, always surprise me *alot* which actually caught my heart AND i'm so in love with alfred!*blush* i know few of friend might be wondering how i get to know him. he is actually my younger sister friend and this where all the thing began and how i get to know him. eh wait! we know each other cos we met before just that we are not friends and we never get to talk to each other till the day i came to kl to visit my sister. we been to the same school. i mean just the opposite school. haha! and i just knew that he seen me before in school but i don't! XD moreover that time he is just too fond with football that he don't bother to try to get attention and he is so shy!! hahahhaha. i guess i should stop making him feel more shy with what i say here! haha. so,, till then :)

says the diary,
na

):

i feel a keen sense of loss and sad today ))):

says the diary,
na

to him

you are the sweetest gift i get from God,, a sweet, caring, understanding, and patience boyfriend! i don't expect that i would meet him after so long i wish to have someone who would treat me as good like he does. we may not a close friend before and we're neither a friend too :) all i can say he has brighten up my day since the first time we start to talk. he is shy when i first talk to him,, but he is quite brave enough to actually start a conversation with me. and that is when everything start. hehe! i like the way he make things so easy for me,, like he cares everything i do, he cook for me,, always make sure i eat my breakfast, lunch and also dinner. bring me out for a dine,, cook for me when am sick,, remind me to take medicine when am sick, make my day that make me never stop to smile. he is just too sweet that at time i think he worth someone better but not me :) but he is mine now. haha. i am so bless! AMEN

says the diary,
na

an update! hehe

after so long since i last blogging.. its been a month after since i got back from a long one month vacation and i have not been *updating* my blog like i use too. hehe! lots of thing happen towards this a month of dismiss. i'm happy,, i know everything happen and come with a reason when you less expect. and yeah... i'm happy! yes people.. i'm happy *i repeat* hehe. i think i'm bless! yes God has bless me alot all this while.. almost in everything,,, having good people around and lots more! AMEN. and He is always there for me,, though at times i feel He never hear my prayer.. but i was wrong.. God is always there for me all the time *SMILE* and i believe in each one of us which God created to this world are made to be special and is created for a reason,, how much we are truly bless by His grace,, but we never realise it, only till we finally realise it. and,,, He never once and He never will forsake us.. He never! :)

says the diary,
na

to you, you and you

i miss everyone back home! my mumi,, my dadi,, my brother,,, my big sissy,,,, my ah min koko who just like to give me advice,,, my friends,,,, my bitches,,, my lappy,, my room,,, my pillows,,,, etc *gRrr* most of all,,,, my one and only little nephew, kai! i miss the little soul who just plain enjoy annoys me with he's naughtyness,, but awwww.. i miss the smile that paste on he's bubbly face. i'm sure he misses he's aunty here who often shouting at him everytime when he get super hyper XD


says the diary,
na

sometime

sometime life can be full of surprise. we never know what going to happen next and what will happen. the second thought is either good or bad.. nasty or sweet.. bitter or sour. yes i saw the very last hand when the heart is broken.. when everything never seems so right.. the bitter and sore of life as passing through the daily routine. but life still go on! with God grace everything will be just fine for every soul! Amen.

the tiny little thought whisper telling me that this is what i want. but do i even deserve it? the third thought apply. it may seems so easy like it says but again doing this is just hard to decide and to make a good final conclusion. guess time comes in here? hey like,,, everyone deserve the best wei!

says the diary,
na

i hate to fall sick part 2

i hate to fall sick! :((( its been so long since the last time i get so super sick and ill due to the bad sore throat and cough! coughing is the worst part! Grr. i have hard time to breath perfectly and smoothly. i could not stand with smelling the dirty and dusty air.. what to say smokiee area that just making me hard to breath properly. i have been seeing the doctor and visiting the clinic for twice by now.. that is like not come to a week. see how terrible it is? again again. why oh why. must i get so sick?? i have a bad feeling when come to think of this. it looks like i have a very weak immune system in my body. i lost more weight again due to this. somemore am so skinny.. getting more skinnier again! eeeeeeeeeeeeee

says the diary,
na

i hate to fall sick!

I know i know.. I have been dismiss for a week plus. No ilham ba! hehe.

123... mmmmm..

Today is Sunday, March 29, 2009. The weather was fine,,, where the sun is brighten up the sky, smiling and hotting the earth with sun shine. But I am totally not shining like the sun. More into blue emotion wei.. well cos i am sick! Yes i am sick now! Why oh why?? :( I had a bad cough and sore throat.. Damn! And this is the fourth time continuosly this year,,, the sore throat keep attacking me. I hate it so much wei! Adakah patut i sakit at the very wrong timing!! Grr.

Actually the purpose of me blogging now is not to complain and complain but because i want to congrats my new sexy bitch, darling, hunie, fave pie Miss Zoe Lee for winning the competition last night! Obviously, the winner of Miss Sarawak Leisure 2009 *shoutttttt* If you happen to read this! Congrats, darling!!! *muahhh* I may not know her long. But indeed, she is a nice friend. i HEART you! *hugsss* Worth knowing you, sexyyy! :) I'm proud to say Zoe is one of my pretty hot chic friend.. And i come to realise, why all my girl pals are always hot, sassy, pretty looking etccc BUT I AM NOT! haha

i present you, my Zoe bitch :p

p/s: bitch, sowee i curi your pictures from facebook and friendster XD hope you don't mind. Hehe

says the diary,
na