if only...

I am actually feeling torrified actually it's horrified.. (anyway was just playing with the words)
I feel so terrified!
feeling super shit-ness all over
nothing seems so right
and i hate it!
yes!! I HATE IT
I hate to fall sick especially when festive season is around the corner...
which mean I can't enjoy eating, munching, licking everything i like and love
moreover.... final exam for me is like so soon!!!
a week after Chinese New Year. Grr!
by then I will be free *yay-ness*
hopefully *soon* an undergraduate holder *partially*
*jump with joy*
and yeahh..
I plan to continue doing Master after this, if it is God's will and of course if I have the money.. but again if only I am smart..
YES if onlyyy la.. then I could ask or apply for a sponsorship
or
anyone who is willing to sponsor sponsor me!
that obviously only in my dream
*bodoh-ness*

if only
if only if only
he know' s how I feel right now *clueless*
))):

the diary,
na