the diary :)

October 29, 2009

2009-10-29T23:30:00.006+08:00

after so long.. here some new *update* i've been dismiss in a long period of time due to my busy schedule and also no ilham on what to blog *hehe* currently me undertook this govt training program with the hope this would give me a good prospect in my future career.

and....

i miss my baby fred so much!
can't wait to see him *blush*

says the diary,
na

the little voices that whisper to my ears

2009-07-16T22:40:00.003+08:00

the sky was once blue but it fades to be cloudy and gloomy. maybe i was correct it'd would somehow happen or maybe i was wrong about it. i see the rain drops outside the window as i pushes the curtain to have a glance view to see the outer layer of the beautiful scenery. again again i knew this would happen. maybe what it says is true. a beautiful scenery may look good now and it would turn out gloomy when it is not properly kept. i know i'm strong enough to overcome this and i can alter from bad.. to good but i wasn't too sure with it now. i heard the little voices whisper to my ears, but the volume of the sound was too soft that it fades away...

says the diary,
na

update la

2009-07-12T21:54:00.011+08:00

oh dear.......... its been awhile.. i mean it been so long since i last crapping in bloggie. hehe! i was sick. i fall sick over and over again. i don't know why??? -_-' the sad thing i have to eat 6 different kinds of tablet. with many colors. you name it all! i seriously have no idea what has gotten into me this year.. since early this year where i just fall sick non stop.. and it is continuously i tell you! and that is for real!?? *sigh* and the sad thing is after 24 years of my life i got attack by night asthma! every night i'm having a hard time to breath. hard time in breathing is so killing! i cough non- stop at night especially when its cold. means no fan and no air-con! see how bad is it? *sad*

life has been good to me this year *yayness* my 24th birthday this year was great,,, with love ones around despite the fact i was sick that time that i have to bare with it,,, but literally i had a great time. and again he's back and always there for me all the time. he did alot of thing for me and most of all,,, always surprise me *alot* which actually caught my heart AND i'm so in love with alfred!*blush* i know few of friend might be wondering how i get to know him. he is actually my younger sister friend and this where all the thing began and how i get to know him. eh wait! we know each other cos we met before just that we are not friends and we never get to talk to each other till the day i came to kl to visit my sister. we been to the same school. i mean just the opposite school. haha! and i just knew that he seen me before in school but i don't! XD moreover that time he is just too fond with football that he don't bother to try to get attention and he is so shy!! hahahhaha. i guess i should stop making him feel more shy with what i say here! haha. so,, till then :)

says the diary,
na

):

2009-06-05T17:07:00.005+08:00

i feel a keen sense of loss and sad today ))):

says the diary,
na

to him

2009-05-31T21:30:00.008+08:00

you are the sweetest gift i get from God,, a sweet, caring, understanding, and patience boyfriend! i don't expect that i would meet him after so long i wish to have someone who would treat me as good like he does. we may not a close friend before and we're neither a friend too :) all i can say he has brighten up my day since the first time we start to talk. he is shy when i first talk to him,, but he is quite brave enough to actually start a conversation with me. and that is when everything start. hehe! i like the way he make things so easy for me,, like he cares everything i do, he cook for me,, always make sure i eat my breakfast, lunch and also dinner. bring me out for a dine,, cook for me when am sick,, remind me to take medicine when am sick, make my day that make me never stop to smile. he is just too sweet that at time i think he worth someone better but not me :) but he is mine now. haha. i am so bless! AMEN

says the diary,
na

an update! hehe

2009-05-31T21:10:00.003+08:00

after so long since i last blogging.. its been a month after since i got back from a long one month vacation and i have not been *updating* my blog like i use too. hehe! lots of thing happen towards this a month of dismiss. i'm happy,, i know everything happen and come with a reason when you less expect. and yeah... i'm happy! yes people.. i'm happy *i repeat* hehe. i think i'm bless! yes God has bless me alot all this while.. almost in everything,,, having good people around and lots more! AMEN. and He is always there for me,, though at times i feel He never hear my prayer.. but i was wrong.. God is always there for me all the time *SMILE* and i believe in each one of us which God created to this world are made to be special and is created for a reason,, how much we are truly bless by His grace,, but we never realise it, only till we finally realise it. and,,, He never once and He never will forsake us.. He never! :)

says the diary,
na

to you, you and you

2009-04-19T21:32:00.009+08:00

i miss everyone back home! my mumi,, my dadi,, my brother,,, my big sissy,,,, my ah min koko who just like to give me advice,,, my friends,,,, my bitches,,, my lappy,, my room,,, my pillows,,,, etc *gRrr* most of all,,,, my one and only little nephew, kai! i miss the little soul who just plain enjoy annoys me with he's naughtyness,, but awwww.. i miss the smile that paste on he's bubbly face. i'm sure he misses he's aunty here who often shouting at him everytime when he get super hyper XD

says the diary,
na

sometime

2009-04-12T05:53:00.005+08:00

sometime life can be full of surprise. we never know what going to happen next and what will happen. the second thought is either good or bad.. nasty or sweet.. bitter or sour. yes i saw the very last hand when the heart is broken.. when everything never seems so right.. the bitter and sore of life as passing through the daily routine. but life still go on! with God grace everything will be just fine for every soul! Amen.

the tiny little thought whisper telling me that this is what i want. but do i even deserve it? the third thought apply. it may seems so easy like it says but again doing this is just hard to decide and to make a good final conclusion. guess time comes in here? hey like,,, everyone deserve the best wei!

says the diary,
na

i hate to fall sick part 2

2009-04-02T10:46:00.004+08:00

i hate to fall sick! :((( its been so long since the last time i get so super sick and ill due to the bad sore throat and cough! coughing is the worst part! Grr. i have hard time to breath perfectly and smoothly. i could not stand with smelling the dirty and dusty air.. what to say smokiee area that just making me hard to breath properly. i have been seeing the doctor and visiting the clinic for twice by now.. that is like not come to a week. see how terrible it is? again again. why oh why. must i get so sick?? i have a bad feeling when come to think of this. it looks like i have a very weak immune system in my body. i lost more weight again due to this. somemore am so skinny.. getting more skinnier again! eeeeeeeeeeeeee

says the diary,
na

i hate to fall sick!

2009-03-29T17:24:00.004+08:00

I know i know.. I have been dismiss for a week plus. No ilham ba! hehe.

123... mmmmm..

Today is Sunday, March 29, 2009. The weather was fine,,, where the sun is brighten up the sky, smiling and hotting the earth with sun shine. But I am totally not shining like the sun. More into blue emotion wei.. well cos i am sick! Yes i am sick now! Why oh why?? :( I had a bad cough and sore throat.. Damn! And this is the fourth time continuosly this year,,, the sore throat keep attacking me. I hate it so much wei! Adakah patut i sakit at the very wrong timing!! Grr.

Actually the purpose of me blogging now is not to complain and complain but because i want to congrats my new sexy bitch, darling, hunie, fave pie Miss Zoe Lee for winning the competition last night! Obviously, the winner of Miss Sarawak Leisure 2009 *shoutttttt* If you happen to read this! Congrats, darling!!! *muahhh* I may not know her long. But indeed, she is a nice friend. i HEART you! *hugsss* Worth knowing you, sexyyy! :) I'm proud to say Zoe is one of my pretty hot chic friend.. And i come to realise, why all my girl pals are always hot, sassy, pretty looking etccc BUT I AM NOT! haha

i present you, my Zoe bitch :p

p/s: bitch, sowee i curi your pictures from facebook and friendster XD hope you don't mind. Hehe

says the diary,
na

hard decision

2009-03-19T18:50:00.006+08:00

am having a hard time in deciding things at this right moment. am totally dread in dilemma. i aren't sure whether should i accept or reject the job offered. i aren't pretty sure will it'd give me a positive outcome to me cos am so afraid i could not fulfilled the requirement, the target and stuff. all i know in my mind now keep telling me, i am not so sure! i have no confidence!! and all i can say now i really can't make a real conclusion out of it. for real!

how easy when others keep telling you.. maybe you could try! just go for it! but again.. the answer is all depend on me! i really want to be hire! i really want to work! i really want to start earning money! but again i can't deny the fact how much i am so scared in making this final decision. sigh! should i accept the offer or should i reject it? if i let it go.. will i get any other offer again? i not sure! :S

march 5

2009-03-05T18:49:00.011+08:00

first of all.

am now super hate the hot weather these days. i shall say it is super kinky!

i start to get bored with holidays, despite the fact how much i use to like it and wish i could have more holidays. Time ticking by so slow and am so desperate for a job now,,,, currently applying and hunting for job! a full-time one ey! so frustrating cos none of them replying my application. how sad it is? ))))): Jobstreet are so not giving any good credit to me. Grr!

i need money money money! XD

i start selling off my treasure.. where i am so reluctant to sell them off actually,,, but sooner or later i will for sure need to also what!?? so no point for me keeping them. yea am selling all my textbook book.. the original set as well as photocopy set. ey am doing some advertising here ler! hehe

says the diary,
na

the exam

2009-02-28T18:38:00.048+08:00

i was so afraid that i will fail for my exam. frankly speaking, i would say and i would advice anyone out there never ever take Summer Semester *i repeat never!!*

the result for Summer Sem is officially release yesterday 4:00 AEST Friday, Feb 27 2009 *yes it is na*
but the useless me is always no guts to see the result and how often i have no confidence with myself
first, i was afraid i will fail *and i so forbid that to happen*
i was so afraid that i will have to repeat the subject which is i am so not looking forward and not wish to!
i was so afraid to know the real fact *what if i fail?*
i so don't want to let go the 4k++ just like that! tell you never ever study in private colleges or university! it is costly and everything is money money money. money is so killing the pocket!
last and most of all, i am so afraid of my dadi! he so going to kill me if i fail :(((
but all this random negative thought that played in my little mind is just messing me like mad! AND literally i was fooling myself because of that eh *tsk tsk*

i admit i have not really study nor revise that much for final exam cos it was holiday season! and am so into holiday mood.. like xmas holiday last December, the new year mood and most of all... the most current one, Chinese New Year in mid January! Grr. So basically i don't really read the precious thick textbook when i supposed to do so :(((

i refuse to even log into my studydesk. see how bad it is?? hmm,,,, and i keep telling myself don't you ever try to open the studydesk as for you'll see the good which of course make one feel happy and another one would be the frustrating part when its bad!! but i was telling myself sooner or later i still have to see and face the real fact also what so i buka la my studydesk!!!!!

shutting eyes for few second *tada*

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A complimentary official academic transcript and graduation information will be mailed to all students eligible to graduate from an award program from Monday 2 March 2009.

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Course Code	Course Name	Grade
MKT2001	Promotion Management	B
MGT2002	Managing Organisations	C

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*shouuuut*

I PASS for that two frigging hard subject wei!!! i can't believe it! *look twice* *open my eyes even more bigger* nah.. not a good grade after all also la.. but atleast i pass right?

*jump with joy*

hey.. like what old people use to say when you least expect certain thing it'd for sure turn out the other way round.. i cant stop laughing at myself for being so negative!! hahahhaa

i not sure how i can pass but... i think i did quite well in final exam by looking at the marking grade *laughs* i fail for my multiple choice online quiz for managing organisation *the question so tricky* but the report save me and final exam too *lol* As for promotion i don't do that well for my written report so yeah! but nah.. its over already! :D

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MGT2002 Managing Organisations

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Campus: Toowoomba

Mode: External

Faculty: Faculty of Business

Description		Mark	Weight
ASSIGNMENT 1 (Multiple Choice Online Quiz)	Feedback	42 / 90	30%
ASSIGNMENT 2	Feedback	70 / 100	40%
PART A OF 2-HOUR EXAMINATION	Feedback	22 / 40	12%
PART B OF 2-HOUR EXAMINATION	Feedback	39 / 60	18%

MKT2001 Promotion Management

Semester 3, 2008

Campus: Toowoomba

Mode: External

Faculty: Faculty of Business

Description		Mark	Weight
2 HOUR EXAMINATION	Feedback	46 / 60	50%
WRITTEN REPORT 4000 WORDS	Feedback	63.5 / 100	40%
DISCUSSION FORUM ACTIVITIES	Feedback	9 / 10	10%

hmm. i know la.. my result not that good also eh.. just manage to pass.
**p/s: this not an attempt for me to give a show to regards to my result :)))) just that i feel glad that i pass! i know God has help me so much to pass. Really wei!! Praise God for this!! AMEN!**

says the diary,
na

another issue

2009-02-23T08:44:00.008+08:00

it s*** alot when you get to fall sick like again and again.. *counting* its a third time *continuously* after since the beginning of the year where i fall sick and my sore throat keep come back. sadness! )))):

says the diary,
na

when i was seventeen

2009-02-21T09:00:00.022+08:00

when i was seventeen it was back in 2002
when i was seventeen i has long hair
when i was seventeen i never get good grades
when i was seventeen i never miss being late for school
when i was seventeen i always got caught by the school prefect for being late
when i was seventeen i always colour my hair but never get caught. for real wei?
when i was seventeen i am not as skinny like i am now
when i was seventeen i was in my final year of high school in St Teresa (awh.. i miss st3 eh!)
when i was seventeen is when i had my first crush.. someone who is from the opposite school (you go figure it out!) but we are no longer contacting each other.. maybe if we still i will talk and laugh over those puppy days!
when i was seventeen am so afraid of SPM (thank goodness its over!)
when i was seventeen my mum send me for BM tuition in PBK like every week
when i was seventeen i was too shy to tell people how i feel
when i was seventeen i was a timid young girl
when i was seventeen i don't mix around with people alot
when i was seventeen someone whom i call best friend backstabbing me (i thank her for that if not i wouldn't know who should i call true friends and what true friends are really are)
when i was seventeen i look better than now
when i was seventeen i don't look so chinese-sy but now i look like one
when i was seventeen i am not an 'ah lien' but now i think i look like one (maybe a few think i am too)

says the diary,
na

baking a Carrot Cake

2009-02-11T10:23:00.018+08:00

i realise am so into baking now. and i want to try out all those simple recipe when i have a time. i seriously got alot of free time now.. and this little voices whisper to my little thought and say i should bake. uhuhu! (the so eager-ness in me wanting to start baking!).

Anywayyyy.. i personally think baking is fun and is way much much better than cooking.. i can cook but i am just too lazy
*wide smile*

i won't do much talking for now ...

so why don't you guys....

check this out... (it'd sure worth your time)
am going to try out the recipe now! and i shall post up the result by today!!

Carrot Cake recipe

my chinese new year!

2009-01-26T17:24:00.006+08:00

To all my Chinese friends who are celebrating (or not celebrating),
Wishing you all a happy Happy Chinese New Year!

Gong Hey Fatt Choy!
Have a good one :)))

Here come the year of the sexy ox again XDD

loves,
na (the wooden sexy ox *blek*)

if only...

2009-01-23T11:54:00.021+08:00

I am actually feeling torrified actually it's horrified.. (anyway was just playing with the words)
I feel so terrified!
feeling super shit-ness all over
nothing seems so right
and i hate it!
yes!! I HATE IT
I hate to fall sick especially when festive season is around the corner...
which mean I can't enjoy eating, munching, licking everything i like and love
moreover.... final exam for me is like so soon!!!
a week after Chinese New Year. Grr!
by then I will be free *yay-ness*
hopefully *soon* an undergraduate holder *partially*
*jump with joy*
and yeahh..
I plan to continue doing Master after this, if it is God's will and of course if I have the money.. but again if only I am smart..
YES if onlyyy la.. then I could ask or apply for a sponsorship
or
anyone who is willing to sponsor sponsor me!
that obviously only in my dream
*bodoh-ness*

if only
if only if only
he know' s how I feel right now *clueless*
))):

the diary,
na

reminiscing 2008

2009-01-09T22:00:00.070+08:00

It's time to reflect on 2008 what I have been through for the past 12 months. So many things happen... from good and bad, thick and thin, and from sweet and bitter. And I know all the things happen end with a reason *wide smile* I may gone through the bitterness towards the beginning of the year... BUT everything turns out well towards the middle and the end. And thank God for the year and of course for always there though how much I slack alot but He is there pouring more of He's grace little by little without me realising!! Having a supportive parent, siblings and, old and also new friends around are great (you all know who you are! *smile*) I would like to thank you guys once more for everything, for being there to give me a listening ear, words and maybe a shoulder to cry on.. And I'm so glad to have you all around. No matter we have or never ever hang out before!

Those are the people that come to my mind at this right moment
(Sorry ya, if I have not include a few in)

Let me start...

First and foremost... My darling sister, Grace.. This hot chic with long maxi dress *pic above* is my one and only youngest sister, my bestfriend, my babe, my partner to crazy with, my roomie since little till now, and we laugh and cry together over the mistake we do and telling each other how stupid it is. How come we don't look alike? Hehe. Why? She has more of the Lunbawang look :) Sissy, you are always the best! And, I love you bitss. I know at times we do fought and argue alot. Always, I'm the one who is going to shut and let you win. But that's nature. I can't deny the fact how stubborn and selfish am I (sometime!). I want to say sorry for everything, if I ever hurt you before. See you soonish in KL.. 3 more months and you'll see me shop like mad :D wei.. I've lists the thing I plan to hunt already eh. teruk kan! *giggles*

Second, meet Aaron. Two words to describe. Sweet and caring. I knew Ron not long. Indeed, he is such a good listener. The person I can talk without feeling any boundary. He was there comforting and encouraging me with words when I'm losing out of thoughts early last year. It'd touch me alot when come to think I just knew him not long but he is always there willing to hear me all the time. You may say you did too little or a little too much but it do mean alot to me. All I know I feel comfortable talking to you. You're the best! Thanks, Ron for what you've done *most of all* for the time you have spend and everything *hugs* I know I push you too much with my problems before. Ron, I'm soweee.

p/s: Please don't kill me.. I don't have any of your photos so I stole it from your Friendster *blek*

Third, my dear Linda Lau. Get to know this lovely lass early last year through my crazy and senget friend, Ivan aka Ivanna the person with full of Ivan-ness! Linda has been a very awesome friend to me. Thanks, hun *love you bits* We when for Sushi together. We hang out together and a few time before she left to Bintulu and finally now she's back again to Kuching for good. yes for good *thumbs up*

Fourth, darling Catherine. Knew Cath also early last year. My course mate and also a good friend of mine. I never expect that we will be so close. Indeed, we got so much to talk about, basically in anything and almost everything. Love you to bits, hun! *hugs*

Everyone, meet Healsca!! You're awesome! :D A good problem adviser. A good friend. I think a good boyfriend for he's hot women too (the one next to him in the picture *smile*) . This kazen memang full of good advice.. So I name him, 'Problem Consultant'. You story story la.. he will just hear and for sure give you a good advice and make a real good conclusion. Thanks for the advice. May God Bless you and your another half with lovely children in the future yet to come :)
p/s: Sorry kazen.. I curi your picture from you're facebook!! Uhuhu

Sixth, I present you my little brother, Alex and he's "GF"! *winks*
He so gonna kill me, if he sees this (and me uploading this photo. Hehe!). Anyhoo.. he's the bestest brother! This macho brother of mine is always with few words but forever with a big smile pasted on he's face! He is kind, awesome, and full of lame joke. Most of all, he is always being the good brother of mine cos when I'm out to club, he make sure the big sister here is safe in club and is returning back home safely too! Thanks, bro!

Seventh, my favourite cupcake, Florence Piong! A good friend of mine besides our darling, Diana. The youngest one among 4 of us. My course mate back in Uni. My study revision mate. My shopping babes. The babes who drive us four around. My eating session mate. And..The chic who start and is currently addicted to shopping online after been introduce by me. Me bad! Hehe

Lastly, my another favourite cupcake, Diana Wong! The eldest one among us four in the gang. Our one and only big 'che che'. Love you, hun! My good listener. My great shopping companion and eating session, and not forgetting my course mate back in Uni.

says the diary, na

let's sing!!

2009-01-09T17:18:00.011+08:00

All For Love
___________
All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)
__________________________________________________________

Indeed God will forgive our sin no matter how many time we have broke He's heart.
He will always there even when the world has drown us apart from HIM

says the diary,
na

gladiators shoes!! what say you?

2009-01-09T16:41:00.031+08:00

I come to realise that my sense of liking+adoring a things (such as shoes or tops) will change when more and more people start having it
(true wei!)
what happen? what makes me feel that way?
make it simple
I start to LOVE gladiators after since my sister get so obsess with it. she own like? mmm.. more than 10 pairs of gladiators now I guess. yesss.. she is so mad with gladiators ok! :D so yeah! that is when I start to like and crazy of it.. Hehe! and it was like in mid- 2008 (last July to be exact!)
so I ask her to get me a pair of gladiators from KL!
and yes I just get to wore it last November
*yay-ness*
love it
looking so vintage *wide smile*

and yes now....
after see-ing the same pair of gladiator I have at Fabiano Ricco, Boulevard Mall, Kuching
I was like..... okayyyyy!!
means......... the trend comes to kuching already!
(but still not much people wearing it! *gooood*)
and soon more and more people going to walk around with the gladiators
so I come to a simple lame and weird conclusion that I will *soon* stop and not going to wear it anymore
Definitely, I will get a new one on my up-coming trip to KL this April
*can't wait*
Call me weird! I know I am! (all the time) but somehow each one of us will feel a little bit awkward when you walk around the town/shop and out of sudden you see someone using the same thing as you are at that moment in time (or, maybe someone looking at you with this 'kek-kin' look! I seen it before!Haha) and after that you realise,
'ohh.. no wonder!? same....'
- this could be.. the same pair of shoes, stilettos, flops, dress, tops, etc you wearing *LOL*

says the diary,
na

MGT2002

2009-01-08T18:46:00.014+08:00

yay-ness!!
done with MGT2002 Managing Organisation assignment

one more report to go....

MKT2001 Promotion Management
Grr!
you still have one more to go na!
*i repeat 2xx*

btw.. this morning i bake a chocolate brownies for the second time!
and this time... i don't forget breaking 3 big lovely eggiess. uhuh!
the brownie turns out good :D
*not bad for people like me*

says the diary,
na

baking a chocolate brownies

2009-01-07T20:29:00.013+08:00

my chocolates brownies is not a brownies
and it turns out into some I don't know how to explain it

*disappointment*

I did a minor mistake.. where of all thing I forgotten to break 3 lovely BIG eggies..Tsk2!
I totally forgot about it cos I was in rush of baking the choc brownies for my aunt plus......... I plan to get back with my two final major assignments as soon as possible!

can anyone tell me will a cake or brownies or cookies turns out successfully without breaking a number of eggs in-to it?
what a shame cos my brownies does not turns out great like a brownie this time.
Grr!

says the diary,
na

assignment again!!!

2009-01-06T15:25:00.015+08:00

I've been up to so many things

to wrap it all up
I have tones of important thing to be settle soonish. Grr!

MGT2002 Managing Organisation Assignment 2 Essay due this Friday
Reminder to me:
Jan 09, 2009
*i repeat 2xx*
*jangan lupa*

MKT2001 Promotion Management Assignments Report 2 due next Monday
Reminder to me:
Jan 12, 2009
*i repeat 3xx*
to be exact I have not start a thing on promotion yet!
dead dead!!!
and................... I'm getting my so not flat ass and so not meaty ass TO get back to my assignments

ohhh.. I'm so obsess in getting my hair done with curls now!!
I have no idea what has gotten into me lately. Hehe!
but saya rasa.. I somehow look better with curls.. that's what I think la

what do you think? curl or straight suit me better? :D

oh sissy.. if you happen to read this... i ate another ice-cream from Sugarbun, the Spring yesterday!! and i love the ice cream so much wei!

i miss you! *muah muah*

says the diary,
na

happy new year!

2009-01-01T10:29:00.009+08:00

nana...
wishing you all a happy happy new year 2009.. let the sweet and bitter of 2008 remain as a history as we move to the year 2009! Remember- Life is short, forgive and forget, love truly, laugh over the things that worth the laughter, and never regret anything you've done but smile because it happen. be good *hugs*

says the diary,
na

before 2008 comes to an end

2008-12-30T23:06:00.008+08:00

I don't want to miss this! Before the year comes to an end..
The year 2008 will forever remain as the memory and it'd shall remain as a history for the year 2009.
Another new year and I hope it bring a good things to me. Many things in mind now! And, the new resolution of Miss Edna Ruran Purait,,,, that been list by this princess nana will gonna be way too longggg! for real!! Hehe
and thank God for His blessing throughout the year and for an extra year ahead to make the difference with what we have *smile*

says the diary,
na

wishing you all

2008-12-25T00:14:00.005+08:00

wishing you all a blessed Xmas and may this season bring you joy and with full of surprises. God Bless!

loves, na

says the diary,
na

darling sis 22nd

2008-12-18T11:57:00.005+08:00

Its 2:57am now.. when I know I supposed to be sleeping right now. Should often always been piggie-ying by now then! But see what happen I'm still awake. I'm having a bad headache now due to walking under the rain.. Not by purpose but no choice. No umbrella with us eh.. So yeah! We have no choice and had to walk under the rain.Sigh!

Anyhoo......

My darling sister turning 22 today! My hottie looking sister. Loves her tones! My forever bestfriend. Who born a year after me. I knew her better day by day since the day she was born. We fought sometime (Who doesn't right? Hehe).. Despite all that.. we know we still love each other ba. We argue alot and often I'm the one who will end shut up and letting her win! Hehe! We cry and laugh over the stupid thing and mistake we made. One thing in common, we have super sensitve skin where we can't do housework like washing dishes and all because it cause our finger start itchy and hurt! :( We enjoy admiring others.. Like when we see pretty celebrity or hot chicks passing by.. we start saying, if only we look pretty and hot like them then we will be one bitch in town.. Haha!! Actually we don't mean everything we said.. We were just saying for the sake of making us feel better of our ugly-ness.. Somehow my sista is still the hottest just like my eldest sister -when the time she is single la.. now no longer!! keke. she still am la.. but now the hot mama of one handsome little son, my nephew, David! *wide smile*

My sister celebrating her 22nd at D11 Steamboat. A superb steamboat in Kuching *two thumbs up* which situated at Jalan Ban Hock (right at the back side of Hornbill Steamboat).. Hey must try people!!! The place is super clean and the food serve are great! And the scenery are good too!!!

sis and her good friends

liss.me.bev

wani and sze

group photo

After D11, we when to Starbucks, the Spring!! -which is located at Jalan Tun Jugah. Heard that there's FREE coffee.. but mana tahu free coffee is only during day time.. so we don't get our FREE coffee! *Tsk Tsk* Luckily, we are too shy to ask whether if there's a free coffee like what we heard from friends. Hehe! If not we me-malu-kan ourself nia le *giggles*

me.wani.sze.sissy, gres

me.wani.sze.sis.kakak

*candid candid*

says the diary,
na

i think

2008-12-18T11:11:00.015+08:00

I think my brain is ain't functioning that well and it's freezing! I also don't know why? Maybe because due to I had too much sleep. Haha! And I spent more time sleeping these days. The raining season captivate me to sleep more and more :p

I think I need to breeze some fresh air. But yuck! I'm not going to do so. It'd smell so stink outside my house car porch now.. Ermm..... Due to my neighbour who has 3 stinky dog and they smell awful XD Not to say la.. But the fact is true. Believes me? It smell stink especially during the rainy days. Don't know what causes it.

I think I start to feel sleepy *again?* Really de? And I feel like going back to sleep again. Call me pig? Like what my darling diana and darling florence saying, 'this amoi confirm "cap babi"?' *giggles*

I think I seriously need a real personal alarm to wake me up! The alarm clock could not wake me up after all! My phone alarm had doing it best, but my itchy hand for sure will snooze the alarm over and over and end up shut it down :P

I think I feel something missing here! Oh.. Nana is missing you dearly :(((

says the diary,
na

current motion

i miss u

sigh!

yeah, that's probably it

2008-12-17T22:36:00.013+08:00

Ok, I know I been alot too lazy to blog. I currently not exactly in anything that make me so occupied, but it is NOT a reflection of my mood too. Haha! In fact, I am so free and I spend more time on sleeping. Oh yeah.. I awesomely enjoy it much! and I decide to stay home as much as possible because I enjoy it! And it's good to see no cash flowing like water now *two thumbs up*

I slept early and woke up late- as in I sleep early at night and I woke up late in the morning. Which is totally make me feels I'm such a pig! It's so easy to slide back to the old lifestyle I once had, that is sleep like there never tomorrow. Hehe! And talk about bimbo(-ness) I feel like one now! :D If you call me, 'that bitch?' I don't freaking care cause I don't find any reason why you think I am one. Most people say I'm too skinny. And.. I'd say, yes I know. But atleast he don't think I am right? Awww.. He is such a cutie! And all the time he is cute and handsome in my eyes.. It'd happen since the day I drawn a glance onto him and after since then, I start stalking him in Uni. Haha! Maybe I got nothing better to do. Yeah, that's probably it. I wonder what he is up to now? I am just to shy to ask. Hehe! I miss you!

says the diary,
na

i can bake.. not bad!

2008-12-17T21:44:00.014+08:00

my mum use to say, 'who say you don't know how to bake.. you cin pin- tua nia.. blabla (in english means you are just being too lazy XD) i have to admit that i don't like doing housework like cooking!!! wherrrreeeeee the oil seems to hate me alot.. the ONIONs often enjoy seeing me crying. tsk tsk! the dishwasher liquid hates to see my tender skin and make my hand skin pilled off, dry and hurt :((((

sorry for the bad intro.. i know i may sound like a bimbo.. hey just for once ey :D

anyhoo.. TWO days ago i bake a Chocolate Brownies.. i have no idea does it taste good or not la.. but atleast it'd turns out not bad for people who still a learner right? My mum says not bad.. My sis say its nice.. But i think its too sweet ler.. REALLY wei! :))) i think i shall reduce the amount of sugar the next time i bake. the reason me start baking is for my darling friend, diana for her 27th birthday!! :) and i bake it to have a try on that recipes.... and if it turns out bad then i shall just help the bakery shop then.... by contributing another profit to them ~ if you get what i mean *lol*

sowee for the poor quality photos.. using my phone camera ler. HEHE

says the diary,

current emotion

am missing you badly :(

the diary been dismiss for no update

2008-12-17T21:41:00.008+08:00

i know i've been dismiss for quite a time.. i'm just too lazy to update

*wide smile*

says the diary,

so damn sickening

2008-12-03T22:29:00.003+08:00

i'm so sick to hear people start complaining alot when actually they know they depending too much on others and keep repeating saying i hate this? i am so disappointed? i hate that person? i hate to know that things are like that? oh my.. please la okay! i am sick of hearing all this. oh man.. this sound like me never stop complaining... then me bad!!! XD i need to change for the best!

my sister is heading back home

2008-11-22T15:28:00.022+08:00

I'll shall make this entry with less words and let the picture do the talking for me. HEHE!

Anyhoo.. My sister is heading back home in 3 hours time with her roomie Miss Bija Bujok! I misses her so much! cause I miss someone I can crap with but I don't miss the time that she can just yell at you without any reason and sad thing without you realise it..AND the moment after she yell at your ear.. all you know is.. either you're ear drum hurts so badly or worst thing that ever happen to me is... I nearly got minor heart- attack. swt! :(((

my hot darling sister, Grace Miriam Purait
p/s: I know we don't look alike.. Indeed she has more of the native blood then I was :)

people, I need to make it clear.. I know most of you think I am pure Chinese, No I am not! I only have half of the chinese blood

and that basically through my mumi :D

take 2 -

I have no idea why she took a shot with this man!

all I know she told me she think that it is so Artistic

so yea! that makes her ambil gambar with this man :)

my sister with her super annoying laughter

*kindly 'click' the '>' button to hear it.lol*

Err..I'm sure my sis gonna kill me after she read this post eh *giggles*

You all must be wondering who is Bija??

Here, I present you pretty Miss Bija Bujok.

till then! :)

-says the diary, na-

Sometimes

2008-11-21T22:27:00.012+08:00

SOMETIMEs... even the best of us get stressed out.
SOMETIMEs... we could all use a break.
SOMETIMEs... laughter can solve the problem.
SOMETIMEs... a light heart can save the day.
SOMETIMEs... a carefree attitude can free the soul.
SOMETIMEs... a smile can warm the coldest of hearts.
SOMETIMEs... the right words can change the situation.
SOMETIMEs... it's just not enough...
SOMETIMEs... there's nothing you can do.
SOMETIMEs... you just have to PRAY.

ALWAYs...
God will listen!!

says the diary,
na

In My Prayer

2008-11-21T21:25:00.014+08:00

In My Prayer

To be away from special someone, it's not and easy things

It's hard for them to know the JOY, that the thought of them can bring.

But knowing that with each PRAYER I say, and with every soft AMEN,

I ask Our Lord Jesus Christ to BLESS you in every single day!

says the diary, na

i think i'm weird

2008-11-18T20:17:00.016+08:00

I think I’m weird. I have been liking old school song after since I don’t know when. I been repeating hearing the song ‘Say ok’ by Vanessa Hudgens this few days. Anyway, I just love that song heaps :D And it’s weird when come think I am not so into the song by Rihanna, Usher or any other new albums that currently release in the market like hot cake. What I mean here is I am not so obsess with their music at all but I am so into 'Say ok' by Vannesa. I can just on the Winamp with just that one song and keep repeating the song over and over again. I don’t get bored with it eh!

I wish I could say my life is just plain boring, but it doesn’t, NOT AT ALL, not in any way. Really wei! Hmmmm. Well… Somehow I can just stay at home all day long or even days, or even weeks provided with good Internet connection *of course!* then I could just.. with my hands over my laptop. I am very sure my parents would like it so much to see me at home all the time cos they don’t have to worry about what I’m up to and where am I and etc etc.

I had weird feeling and I get freak out when people over acting. And I get so annoyed when people keep nagging me. I just don’t feel like answering certain call sometime (depending who is the caller and if I feel like talking to the person then I answer). Worst!! I dislike people who enjoy telling lies to me and the rest. I know who am I to judge right. But I get so sick seeing this kinda people la. So damn annoying!

I think I’m weird in a way I won’t go and confront or say right to the person personally even when I know things are so so not right. And I just let the person ‘blarr’ me, which obviously make me looking so stupid. But its ok, I won't mind. I'd take this as... I am just too kind or shall I say it I am just too dumb??

says the diary,

to florence dear, happy birthday!

2008-11-17T23:32:00.031+08:00

i know it's quite a late post after all.. and i'm not gonna miss it!!! *giggles*
the clock shows it slightly 30 minutes more to go before the clock strike 12 and i'm late with this entry..
me bad XD

it's Nov 11, 2008 still,
a day to remember that it was my darling Miss Florence Piong turning 22 *hugs* she's another bestest friend i ever had and the person who worth me to be friend with. i know i may not know her long let say its 2years by now but i just get close to this pretty lass a year plus. she's the person who i get to share all the laughter, good and bad time, and MOST OF ALL our very great moment in Swinburne.
Yea obviously.. i miss all the good day we had back then *sniff sniff*

we had our dinner at Bla Bla Bla
those were present are florence, diana, me, emy and emy's bf wira
sorry no food pictures
we seriously forgotten about taking photos of the food
well, all we remember was eat eat!
so totally forgotten about it *keke*

but here's the picture of us three
*emy was missing in photo cos she's the one taking those picture so that makes us only three in the picture*

first of all, let me present you
the blackforest choc cake for our darling florence
p/s: sorry for the poor quality photos. using camera phone cos diana dgcam low batt.lol

take 1
with my two pretty hot lass, florence (middle) and diana (the one on the right side of florence)

take 2
us again.. i spoil the picture anyway.. florence and diana looking awesome
and
the ugly one in blue is me :D

take 3
lastly, florence smiling widely for the shoot and me don't know what i'm smilling at.. i think i was talking to emy that time

that's all for today!

nites *hugs*

she misses you dearly

says the diary,
na

sunday blue

2008-11-16T15:17:00.026+08:00

Today is SUNday and I feel so blue :(( Another day when I am not sure what has gotten into me again. I feel so blue the moment I get up from sleep. Anyhooo I am so damn piss with this person who just don't seems to understand and I guess that manusia never want to understand! When people are busy please la understand. But thissssss... you wants people to please you by hearing all your holly crap... and that is SO SO not fair for us. Isn't that make you sound so gay?? One more thing, when you keep nagging others you are actually just making yourself looking so sissy. Accusing others with your whatsoever own imaginary instinct which is not accurate at ALL is just making others think your just being so naive and you being so 'perasan'. Sorry okay I don't mean to say that. But please la ok. please STOP THAT for goodness sake!!! Don't make such mess over and over again. Oh my.. Why am I letting out my anger here! I just can't take it anymore.. And I feel so like an ember *NOW* it can be feel right on top of my head. If only I could sum- up everything and say EVERYTHING right to your face just like you always did.. then it will be so easy for me. But too bad that is just not me and it'd will never happen to see me saying things right to someone face. REally wei! Enough said.

says the diary,
na

tagged

2008-11-14T23:38:00.034+08:00

I'm tagged by Wei Khee, so here it goes:

Here are the rules.The very simple rules. All you need is..
To tag along: You have to list 7 weird things about yourself, post it in your blog, tag at least 7 people (list their names), and comment on their blog to let them know that you just tagged them. Want to get know more about me? Now is your time!

one thing that till today i don't get myself is.. i like biting my finger nails when talking to people.. and i don't realise it till someone tells me! am not nervous of whatsoever.. i guess that is just one of my random bad habits XD
i tend to get tired and sleepy *that is like so OFTEN* even when i had enough of rest
i eat alot but yet i still so skinny
i don't mind buying the same pattern of tank as long as its different in colour.. let say 4 pairs with different colours
i get attracted to cute guys with sharp jaw/face (both are similar) with a black frame spec. whenever if i see any those material automatically the nerves in me erupt to my brain and whisper... 'woooo what a real hottie' *blink blink*
i will never step out from my house without drawing liners.. it is just so essential. bleh!
i can actually envisage or foresee things before it'd happen esp bad things *sighh* and it always seems so true

I intentionally tag:
Grace, Jeremiah, Isaac , Healsca, Amber, Linda and Yes you if you happen to stumble into my blog.

Thank you

says the diary, na

disappointed

2008-11-14T23:35:00.016+08:00

I'm dead! The MGT1200 BC (Assignment3) results weren't as what I expected (as I'd thought it'd be *sad*). And I'm now curiously wondering how come it is so that bad :((( I was not happy at all today after looking at the result in my online student StudyDesk, because I didn't do as badly as I expected for good for the third assessment *frustrated* The semester 2 is over, and there's no more work to come for me to pull up the marks *sigh* I think I will fail for that subject! That is so I don't want it'd to happen!! :((

says the diary,
na

finals is finally over!! overrrrr.. yehhhh!!

2008-11-13T12:42:00.027+08:00

Services Marketing is finally over today!!!
its finally end 10:40am *sharp**
ohh gosh! i not sure will i pass or not wei :(((
i can't remember a thing *sadder*
all i know i 'goreng goreng' alot
and
i don't KNOW what the heck i been 'cooking' for that freaking 2 hours
errkkk! what i mean by cooking is i don't mean that cooking
its another cooking which is.. you go figure out yourself ok *giggles*

indeed!!
i need a real good sleep
in need
oh diary you know how much i need a real good sleep
Sem2 has finally come to an end
am looking forward for Summer Sem
*in a week time*

current motion

sleepy

missing you dearly

says the diary,
na

i should be nerding

2008-11-08T10:31:00.032+08:00

current situation:
I've been attack softly by finals

Nov 4, 2008
Tuesday
2:30pm
Market Research..
eh its Marketing Strategy actually
p/s: ka joy thanks for letting me know my mistake.uhuhu!

*i have no idea whether can I pass or not*
so hard *damn*
this final year paper is so killing
*sadness*

Nov 5, 2008
Wednesday
2:30pm
Elective subject:
Business Communication

*i know it may sound easy*
but mind you it wasn't easy at all
*sadness*

ONE MORE TO GO..
Nov 13, 2008
am hoping Services Marketing will be fine

*pray hard*

to all my fellow friends who be sitting for you're final *SOONISH*
study smart and do you're very best and lifts everything unto God.. He know' s what we needed most
pray hard alright!

And
and
and
all the best to my friend who still up with assignment!
you all can do it

going through the emotion

na is missing you badly :((

says the diary,
na

to you

2008-11-04T08:33:00.012+08:00

to you,

you are like the star that never stop brightening the night
the star that never stop sparkling the thin dark sky
and how much my heart loves the view.. where the thought that one never know how grateful to have someone to share and who understand you (when you thought you could only seal everything to yourself)
no words can tell how all this could bring
all I want say is to thank you for everything and for always there willing to hear me all the time!
(p/s: i know i veri loso! sowee)

i want to wish you...

A happy 18th birthday *hugs* GOD BLESS

loves,
na

i just couldn't simplify more

2008-10-30T16:14:00.006+08:00

i couldn't simplify it more. why do things just never seem so right or was it i' m the one making it feel so. i want to give up. yes almost give up! what more to be explain. at times i feel like i am just to weak to hold it. i feel insecure most of the time. i feel that i just need some time to discover the real things ! as a undergraduate i wish to be complete.. wish to own this smarty brain. and most of all, to complete in my studies as soon as possible. who don't want right? i can't deny the fact that i was not born to be smart :(((

to the you

2008-10-29T16:27:00.020+08:00

another day when i just don't know what has gotten into me. Or am I just being idiotically silly again? i felt sorry for him for getting to talk to the bad me and without any apparent reason i get so angry and merajuk-ing because of one small thing. and i lie to him saying i'm okay and not angry. am sowee dear!i guess maybe i was just in the tendencies of center of attention.. trying hard to grab he's attention and to rasa cute when it is not cute at all XD instead i am just creating a problem of making him feel bad and maybe mad.but i know he won't.. you're just one sweet adorable you who make me never stop smiling to myself.haha. i know i look real stupid now.bleh!
enough said.

lastly i wanna say, i' m sowee eh.. please forgive me *giggles*

loves,
na *hugs*

is this what you call bestfriend?

2008-10-11T13:46:00.035+08:00

i am not suppose to blog this time basically because i have 3 more final report to go plus finals around the corner. but let me make it simple the purpose why i click the 'new post' button because am so damn piss with this woman who don't seems to understand. if you want to call me bitch after reading this entry go on.. i don't care! like you said I'm a bitch..YES I AM! never did i never say I'm not one!! what more would you want to say?? i can't stop your thick red lips from saying a word tho'... and again i say.. if I'm a bitch where is all the prove.. i get so upset of myself getting to know this woman.. a person whom you trust.. a person who never will you ever thought would stab you from back.. a person who is excellence in pretending like as if she so innocent when the fact she is not. let me sum it up,, never did she STOP accusing other by saying that we are bad when she's the one who is the bad one! never she ever cares about others feeling all she know is she wants others to cares her feeling. this woman i know since i was 14 back in high school who just never stop backstabbing me and others from back after since then. the person who make me cry when i'm 17. and i forgive her for everything she do to me even when many saying that i should not forgive her. maybe that time i was being nice and i thought she would change.. ~hey... people do change tho' IF THEY REALLY WANT TOO! SO, i forgive her for what she did to me but once again she start creating the mess and stood up steadily with her new 'CARTOON' story!! NEVER DID SHE CHANGE!! am so sick seeing this kinda person and i finally decided to ignore her once again and it is FOREVER!! when thinking of what she had done to me.. i just couldn't get it why.. first things that rammed into my tiny thought i say.. is that you call bestfriend?? in the sense like you go around telling lies and create your cartoon story to others saying me say this and that.. and that particular person hated me with no apparent reason. and WORST thing that person claim it to others that i hate her and saying me say bad things about her. AND I HEARD SHE SAYING TO OTHERS IT WAS YOU, MISS EDWINA CHAN LEE CHING who says me saying all the bad things about her!! *WTH* and the REAL FACT is... it was you the one who start saying all the bad things about her to me BUT all of this while i never seems to care the story you tell me about her and how dare you putting all the BLAIM to me...AND NOW you send me a message in Friendster (let me count its the 4th message I think) saying you don't know what are the reason of MAKING ME stop talking and avoiding you!!!! i just don't get it.. and why ohhh why in this earth there is a person 23 years of age still act like a primary school kid and never stop talking about others from back.. worst you did this to your own good friend. come on la!! you are old enough and by right by now you should know how to fully use of your brain and should try to appreciate your friends more like how we appreciate our parents. if you ask me now do i hate you! i' ll shall say I ONCE HATE YOU.. but not to worry i don't hate you anymore but no matter what the circumstance is the hurt is still there. . no matter how hard you want it to be deleted it will forever stay there! what else more you want me to say here? i got nothing much to say.. why not you start to think and ask yourself what the bad things you've did to me and the rest! Enough said.

p/s: if you happen to read this.. i don't care what you want to say.. if you liking to call me bitch now.. i accept it with open arm!!

says the diary,
na

never did i never complain

2008-09-27T18:12:00.017+08:00

i need a real good sleep even i know i had enough of spending my time sleeping. i need to do my report cause the final result is all depend on how wise i manage my time. i need a new pair of heels cause i start to get sick wearing those flat shoes *NOW!* XD i need to be very hardworking cause i realise now i get so super lazy **most of the time** *ZzzzZzz* i need to gain weight cause i' m too thin la *bleh* i need more holiday cause i need a real break to clear out my mind *too much studying aint good for brain ler* ~crap! i need word of wisdom cause i realise i am forever always lack of self-confidence. most of all i need a sleep cause i felt tired so fast plus headache seems to attack me like so often for the past few weeks *sigh*

says the diary,
na

when motion reaches its limit

2008-09-26T22:43:00.013+08:00

It seems simple like it says but hard to make the right decision. This thought never will it be out play in one mind. To become someone useful in the future, achieves your dream, getting good grades, taking the courses you like *MOST* and wish that it'd could bring a good perspective for you and of course paying you a real good pay. This all small tiny little thoughts were playing in my mind these days. I try to define it all and obviously I try to make a conclusion out of it. It is always in my dream since the very first day I enter into my tertiary life I dreamt to be like what I want it to be when I grow up. Taking finance as my major.. hmm. just a diploma eh!*haha* I'm not a smart ass ler :( yea I like it much and the fact is I use to have passion with numbers *use to* Things has change after I start doing higher level after advance diploma. And all my hope and dream run into drain.. :(((( *now* I hate seeing number as it makes me headache yet when it reach to the stress level. I felt real stupid when I couldn't figure out the solution of the question. I feel the level of madness in me begin to rise! yes I get real upset easily each time when I couldn't get the answer of the exercise given by the lecturer. I feel like throwing the calculator but never do I did it once. The only thing I did was pressing the calculator harshly with the add of disappointment grudge in me. And so yea.. I start hating calculation after since then. I nearly give up but thank God for sending me two supportive parents, friends who was there to give me a supportive word of advice and here I am still pursuing my dream. . Few might be wondering what am I taking now.. am taking marketing major now! *me liking* and yes am hoping that I will get through all this Semester and complete like I plan it to be :)

says the diary,
na

just too lazy

2008-09-22T23:00:00.001+08:00

a post before i doze to sleep. this gotta be my entry for today! people i'm hungryyyyyy and i had not eaten my dinner yet cos i'm too lazy to walk down *from my room* to the kitchen *gaaahh*

says the diary,
na

tantrum

2008-09-20T19:54:00.021+08:00

just a random tantrum.

i don't know what has gotten into me. but i am just feeling so angry of every single thing i do. i got angry without any reason when i'm awake this morning.i got angry when the phone keep ringing and when no one picks up. i got angry when my internet connection fail to work like when connecting to website take it so long. i got angry when people keep asking me all the same question and talking non-sense to me.i got angry when i need to do the cleaning. i got angry when the weather is so HOT! (like now). i got so angry when i realize the time is so limited when i got lots of important things to do. i got angry when i know i have too much assignment to do. i got angry when i just can't finish my assignment *report* to the exact time i plan it must! i got angrier because everything makes me angry *throws tantrum*

i am so frustrated now.. well because of too much task to do for this Semester! everything seems so wrong here! i hate to get such a low mark in any of my Assessment. DAMN! but i'm not a KIASU just that things are just less than what i expect it to be. enough said.

says the diary,
na

MGT1200

2008-09-19T07:16:00.015+08:00

dear diary,

I'm feeling so distress now. SIGH. and totally not in a mood of talking.why oh why i get so *low** mark for that subject :( I'm feeling so sick these days.. had a bad headache with the add of feeling like fainting *sobs*

says the diary,
na

the path

2008-09-16T14:45:00.039+08:00

like usual every week and always be every Tuesday I would spent my time with my bestest friends. to be specific we had our lunch together in Uni :) and *beside all that* this hang out session is to back-up with every inch of our so called 'new hot' story of our life *winks* like always I missed Uni life so much (always!) and like always miss to see the smile of this someone who never fail to make me smile whenever we bump each other. and this someone whom I met a year ago who I never thought that would be my friend one day! and we are finally a friend towards the end of last year and start talking in early this year. this someone never even once fail to give a listening ear for me whenever I feel so down and upset of the things I did in the past. how much I appreciate it much! again today we walk pass through. . as usually never did this someone fails to greeted me and same goes to me! never will I fail too *smiling to myself* I feel numb each time I place my eyes as I look through and smile *blush* but I feel bad today! The deep little bad low self-esteem thought whisper to me now voicing to myself wanting to know what in the little mind of this someone. do it feels like how the question played deep in me? how I wish I could read mind. really you know!! should I step a little bit closer or should I step out from it. I don't know what should I do now!! *ponders* maybe the best thing for now is let the time shows it way..

current emotion:

you *always* make my day each time i see you

says the diary,
na

another entry for today

2008-09-15T17:47:00.021+08:00

it's hard to tell when you could caught me to be so serious and nerding around with my books. most of the time I tend to get so sleepy! and this happen like so very often you know *giggles* like now I am feeling damn sleepy *yawn* I have a class later at night but I don't think I'm going tonight..I'm so freaking lazy and no point of going too. hehe! why me not going ey?? one thing I prefer staying at home doing my Assignments (which never seems to end) or maybe will end-up to sleep *enjoy it much* after tired of doing it! I wish I could be more serious.. you know like sitting on the chair read on that thick stack of textbook on the table. BUT neh! this will only happen 2 or 3 weeks before finals eh *bleh* I shall stop now cause I'm feeling so so so much sleepy.ahhha!

loves,
nana

to my bestfriend, yennie dear!

2008-09-15T15:53:00.019+08:00

Looking back through the years I can't believe how long we have been best friends since the day in college. Those days are still fresh in mind! Through the good and bad times. When I needed someone to cry you’re always there to hear. And hears me when in need. We laugh for the best when happiness strike in even when for the bad. And so as time passes and days goes by. Just remember that when you need me, that no matter what time or place, I will always be there by your side

happy 23rd burfday yennie darling

*hugs*

May you have a blessed birthday will full of happiness ey

yen i took this pic from u're friendster :p

Remember:
~don't stress with your work
~don't think so much
~don't say i can't take this or that anymore *hehe* i know there are reason why you decide and still stead and strong with the things you through now!

lots of love,
na *hugs*

update of vent part 1

2008-09-15T14:37:00.020+08:00

I can't belief what I heard now! *omg!* *haha* the time has finally tells me :) Dear readers, you all must be wondering who I'm actually refers this to ey..*btw! this post is NOT to my lovely readers but to this person. enough mentiong! haha. readers please forgive me for this bad entry.. if any of you don't feel like reading this can just click 'x' :p* I know I sound very 'kepochi' *fullstop* Goodness.. this 'manusia' must have felt so ashamed of himself *NOW*.. *hahahahhahahhhahahahahha* telling lies is the worst and bad habit that one should avoid.. sooner or later people will know *see see* what happen now?? you're just making fool of yourself you know!! what's the point right for you telling all the lies?? just to impress others meh? **hello!!!* what a pathetic fella you are *rolls eyeball to the right* ohh DAMN I sound real bitchy now.. hahha! i don't care what you want to say! *bleh*

*this post is not end yet!!.winks!*

Assignments again!!!

2008-09-11T17:18:00.016+08:00

Current Obsession:
Moonlight Resonance and hitz lucky/i'm yours by Jason Mraz

I'm currently up with Assignments *bleh* Piles of report to do. But i still sempat *ber-online-ning* uhuhuh! I'm currently in dilemma to which articles to pick for my critical review assessment. Search search from Google's search nothing seems to be suitable at ALL!! *gah!* I feel so cacated and dumb dumb *tsk tsk* Mid-term break is SOON! but it isn't even a holiday for me.SIGH. those a week holiday is a busy week for me to date with my precious Assignments XD

till then!

the diary,
Na
*sign off*

nothing more than to complain

2008-09-11T17:06:00.010+08:00

i know i got alot *always* to complain and complain
*haha*
i sprain my neck last night
and i can't really move my head to the side *sobs*
i don't know how it happen
i guess due to wrong way of sleeping
or it could be due to the cold weather
*in hokkien people use to say it as 'jip hong'*

I'm still with to complain about my laptop *gRrr* so hate it
I HATE ACER!! enough said.

*full stop*

loves,
Na

i hate Acer gRrr

2008-09-10T08:58:00.021+08:00

there's something wrong with my laptop. the screen been flickering.. in other mean been playing *blinking* with me *so often* and (now!) it's getting worst each day.. most frustrating part the screen will just go *blank* out of sudden :(

HELP HELP!

it does not even come to a year
but now start giving me so much complain :S
from now on... i hate ACEEERRRR!!!! *sulk*

what should i do?
send to the computer shop?? (like i first thought)
I want tooo
BUTTTTTT theeeennnnnn
i got tones of report to do
and will due *soonish*
*gRrrr*
what I'm afraid is it will take so long for this lappy to go into that that 'ICU' for some check up and surgery

*last thought*
to use back my old *slow motion * baby pc??
that will never work
the window will *hang* all the time
*sigh*

loves,
Na

sorry for the absence

2008-09-05T22:50:00.012+08:00

what bothers me now is my assignments
*7 reports for this Sem*
at last 3 has gone and 4 more to go
and that is when finals comes in to haunt
*a month of two more to go*
time flies so fast and i realise it's nearly comes towards the end of the year *again*

not much going to say here! as i feel damn sleep *lack of sleep of course* because of my Marketing Strategy report *gRrrr* i really need holissssssss now! a real long holiday
*wide smile*

|pia darling and i|

loves,
Na
*muah*

2008-08-30T20:43:00.016+08:00

no any update will be up!
I'm currently busy with piles of assignment one come after another
*frown*
So to my fellow dear readers kindly wait for any of my update aite *soonish*

loves,
Na
*muah*

updAte

2008-08-22T17:21:00.011+08:00

dear diary,

after 5days for not *updating* any entrys
i've been up to so much high level of *stress-ness* with my first and one foremost assignment report and finally due today!!! one has gone.. 2 more to go for this month *sniff*

i wish i have holiday!
i wish i don't have to study!
i wish i don't have to study cos am spending my dadi cash XD
MOST OF ALL
i wish i can be a doll
so that i don't have to do anything beside pasting myself for people to dress me up nicely especially the kids.. those little girl just adore doll so much.. like if i'm a barbie doll *winks*
i know this post is practically sound so LAME
*ohh please don't remind me how lame am i*
*uhuhuuh*

to my precious diary.. i got nothing much to say now *please forgive me for this lame rambles i just posted* *and to all my previous lame entry too*
am super damn tired NOW and my brain is still bloating with the heavy assignment i've just gone through for the past 3weeks!!
i shall stop now
til then
*tata*

lots of love,
Na
*muah*

Pringles is waving at me! XD

2008-08-17T01:10:00.017+08:00

I never realise it's existent till I saw it! Where? At Pending mini supermarket shop (which i don't know the name.lol. as my main purpose of going there is because of the Coffee shop nia)

Another 'cheaplak' product aftering Pringles XD and i'm pretty sure it doesn't taste as good and as tastier unlike Pringles *right right??*
neither did i try cause i don't crave for potatoes chips and it cost rm3.90 each for Rodeo and
Jacker which is slightly much more expensive by 30cent that cost rm4.20 i think!!
hmm. i would rather purchase Pringles instead :P

Moreover it (Pringles) come out with different odd flavor which I know not all can be seen at the shop (in Malaysia) like Grilled Shrimp and Pepper, White Chedder, Crispy Dill, Jalepeno Cheddar, Crushed Pepper, Creamy Ranch, Jalapeno (is a chillie i guess) OR maybe I am just not aware of it or in other mean they have it but named differently *hehe*

Paprika??
What is that!!?
I never heard that name before
*jakun me*
the most common one are like original flavor, spicy and cheese not forgetting sour cream flavor!!!! *yummie*
awwww.. am craving for it now!! oohhh Pringles please wait for me to get youuuu *weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee*

Vent my dissappointment

2008-08-16T05:28:00.060+08:00

There is a very annoying voice in my head, constantly taunting me and holding a grudge in me. Reminding me of the stupidest thing I have done in my life.The things that cringe and make me ask myself at time ‘what a real BIG mistake I’ve done!’

Maybe I was obviously wasn’t thinking before I did it. While I remember the ‘things’ I did, I start to blush furiously hidden in full of embarrassment (and regret!) and the only thought that comes to mind is ‘How come I just know it now when I actually suppose to know it earlier on’ *uRgh* And I hate it that whatever it tells now, that I should have freaking know it better. All the lies I hear from the mouth which i not sure to believe it and I actually believe it.

Never cross my mind to say it here. But I just couldn't hold the shadow no more and am letting it out all the things I kept in me when I thought I can seal it forever in me. I never hate a person so badly. But am not afraid to say that how much I hated this person now! I know it sound so not me! because I’m a forgiver. BUT remember there’s a say ‘it’s easy to forgive but hard to forget’.

Ok make it this way I never hate this person at the first place. Even when most people think i should and keep telling me it's not wrong! I don’t get it why are you hated by many?? I really don't get it!! I first know this guy as one gentleman. He approach me so perfectly as one descent guy and tells me he's one different person and not like most other guys. From the outer he is just looking so fine (i never expect it's the other way round) and i can see he tried very hard (and he manage to do it at the very best!) to be innocent and so perfect in my eyes. And he show me like you know he seems to know like everything and good in anything etc but deep inside he's totally opposite. After it's over I hear too many saying negatively about this guy but I not sure what it says is it true?? I couldn't believe it cos the person I know wasn't like what I heard. Moreover I don’t see it by my own eyes *yet*!! And practically he doesn't seems like what they said as the person I use to know is.. the one very descent guy not rebellious like what it is said. I don't mean to say all this!

I just couldn’t understand sometime how retard and stupid I am cause I never put a blame on anyone instead I'm putting all the blame to myself. Am I being too kind? NO. I don’t think so. I guess this is just me. All I can say I just can’t find the clue what's the point of you telling me all these crap! Are you trying to impress me? Come on la.. Be yourself even for just a little while. Think of all this it reminds me more how blind I use to be *pffff* and am sick of it!!! AM OVER IT! *smile* to count it..when was that?? it started once after you walk out from the door...

Am not good in judging a person, and I prefer not to judge anyone! Like what old people use to say let the time tells it all. Yes the time seems to tell me now. I never regret for the decision to letting it go. And I DON'T REGRET :) Enough of me mentioning! Not going to say much. This isn’t mean I’m running away from myself. But the voice in mind telling me I just did my part of letting out the ill will. Read my lips, I don’t care about what you think.

this post is not for me to vent my anger and dissapointment to my fellow viewers but to this blardy certain human being who thought he's the Mr. So Damn Super Perfect! i know this don't sound like me.. but you gotta BELIEVE its me saying it now. hehe! the devil side of me. uhuhu! *GRINS*

ohh nana why are you so LAZy XD

2008-08-15T22:48:00.010+08:00

first of all,
am so obsess with hong kong series NOW
XD
secondly,
am so lazieeeee
and feeling lazy all the time
ALL I WANT is to sleep
*giggles*

i'm so in need of.....word of wisdom

*Assignments in progress*
*depress*

3 reports due soonish!!
and and and
i haven't done even 50% of it *sigh*
*darn*
well...not to worry i' m not going to RISK myself eh!

say the diary,
Na

random thoughts

2008-08-14T23:52:00.010+08:00

thought to *UPDATE*

but i feel totally like a pig NOW!
*uhuhuhh*

i want to sleep
+_o

~good night people!
*rhythm*

loves, Na
*muah*

hen zek eh!

2008-08-14T18:07:00.013+08:00

it was pretty an awful day today
and
i can't STOP myself from complaining that the weather here (in Kuching)
is
super HOT and humid
*sigghhhh*

* * * * *

it looks like it's going to rain tonight (sooonnnn)
*laugh with joy*

but yet... i still feel so ' hen zek' which mean very hot in mandarin
*sniffing*
i'm not going to say much now!!
cos....
i just heard the thunder start roaring in the thin grey sky
and i shall not risk my baby lappy and should kindly shut-down my lappy as possible!
*tehehee*

till then!

lots of love, Na

Its Sunday

2008-08-10T17:43:00.045+08:00

Today is Sunday
August 10 2008

when to Church in the morning
and
once back home...
*ta da ta da*
nothing else i would do besides camwhore *wink wink*

take 1
with my hair tied up!

and i start taking more and more shots after that!! *giggles*

take 2
i just realise my hair is getting longer.. and my eyes looking weird *lol*

AND, again *lol*

take 3
try my very best to look younger... *bleks*

*again*

take 4
now.. wide smile with my big teeth can be seen!

*again*

take 5
turn my head a little side..

*again*

take 6
another wide smile *big wide face i have XD*

*again*
* and last one*

take 7
NOW smile with my lips close

actually there's more shots.. but i pick a few nia *giggles*

hmppph.. well this is just part of what i usually do in my everyday routine which is...
*sNap sNap sNap*

Reason(S):
1. As we grow older day by day.. by just taking a number of snap a day you'll get to see few inch of change (even it is just 1%) *true you know*
2. Secondly, because i love to take photos of myself ~just for self-reference *laughs*
3. Thirdly,
when i got nothing better to do so here it goes... me *snap snap snap*
4. Lastly, when boredom killing me *haha*
5. etc etc etc

-The End-

Assignments again

2008-08-09T23:31:00.031+08:00

this is just week 3 of Semester.. and i have piles of assignments coming in which come one after another *sighhhhh* like i said in my previous entry am still not ready in other words not am not so keen with the new start of this sem. why? i also don't know why ey.. i guess because of the short break which only last about 3 weeks. this semester is pretty tough for me.. *when i less expected!* i remember in few months back i complaint alot saying it was the most hectic and tedious time i ever had with tones of reports and weekly quiz-ses almost every week *snort* but this sem is the worst i would say.. i wish i own this brain to help me do things fast.. i wish i own this 'Time Machine' so that i can slow down the time whenever i like and also turn back the time.. if that possible! *bleh!* crap!!! i wish ei *haha* can anyone tell me how to pass and get good grades without doing the assessments and without cramming yourself sitting on the chair with the thick hassle book on the table revising for hour and hours (just like me) and the worst thing i ever did (actually always) by locking myself in the room a month or few weeks before finals?? (only when i feel hungry then you'll see me searching for food.. other than that you see how mad am i staring at the book with my two big ball eyes like as if the book will run away in a second.haha!) neh!! am doing all this to avoid distraction from doing something not worth the time.. i know it may sound real crazy here!! *giggles*

anyway. i want to stop here for now...... 'cause i'm verrrryy damn sleepy!
till then
*smile*
nites all

loves, nana
*muah*

am back home!

2008-08-05T22:08:00.022+08:00

after 3 weeks of dismiss without any *updates*
i' m finally back with updates *wide smile*
i' m back home for about 3 weeks by now (Kuching!)
and i start missing KL, the fact is how much i enjoy shopping so much, the life there is pretty good.. busy life makes one forget about worries and kill boredom (most!),
but there's pros and cons ey
(i belif most prolly will agreed with me!)

my last term result was good..
i didn't expect that i will do that good. well, like what my girl friends use to tell me when we less expect a thing for sure it will turn out the other way round.

i thank God for the goodness because without He's help and kindness i won't do that well..
ohhh well... people am not a bookworm ler.. it's hard to see miss nana hold or even read up the whole thick textbook! *giggles* (only when i'm force to ~but still i won't manage to finish it up even when i'm suppose to geh)
Hmm.. those who knows me.. I'm well known as a lazy bum who enjoy a REAL good long sleep! 24hours a day is just not enough for me *laughs* and i will for sure spend and use the 20 hours on sleeping, or ber-online-ning and most of all day dreaming all day long doing nothing! *keke*

i know God knows what i want most (He's the one who knows me well), my dream, and my hope.
basically, what i hope is to succeed and to do well for my final year.
AND and it is always in my dream and hope to make my parent proud of me and
it is also my dream to be amongst the best and get the best things in life.

~~~

Semester 2 of my final year commence for about 3 weeks by now.. and this week is the 3rd week.. time flies so fast and i have piles of assignment report coming in soon and am still not ready for any yet -_-

erm.. i guess i should stop now.. am feeling restless and uneasy now and still feeling so sick aih *nose block*
till then!
nites
*hugs*

says the diary,
Na

to sum my kl trip (part 1)

2008-07-10T10:45:00.074+08:00

*updates*

i know am been out of blog for almost a week plus :) i thought to update once after am back to Kuching but now i so feel ber-blogging *keke* anyway.. regarding on my previous post about my soon-nish update about foods i will get back to what i've promise soon! *smile*
apparently am now on my vacation trip in KL.. and i left my lappy back home.. and all the food picture i save are there and there's NO any back-up with me now. so what makes me could online is.. i'm using my sis laptop *lol* i will update once am back in Kuching aite!!?
and to those friends who contacted me when am away to ask for a drink, a good shopping session or club sorry for not informing you people ~hmm. i thought i did inform you all that i be away to KL in early of July.. so yea! *smile*

Today (July 10, 2008)

today i so feel like ber-blogging in bahasa melayu swak! don't ask me why *giggles* and i will soon blog in hokkien dialect too *keke* cuaca ari tok nang best eh..aku asa KL sik panas kedak d Kuching.. panas mok mampus. tang kedak api eh.. ya ku geram mun kat Kuching.. on air-con pun sik guna.. masih panas kedak oven!!haha. ari tok ari ketujuh ku kat KL.. nang best eh kat KL.. dapat shopping.. harga sitok murah mun mok d compare kat Kuching.. sah pe-niaga Kuching nang tipu2 sekalian.. charge dengan harga tinggi maka harga sepatut-nya sik la tinggi gine. pembulak li !! *hehe* ari pertama ku kat kl pegi Mid-Valley since umah adik ku dekat sia.. mun sik jam drive 15minutes sudah sampei... btw i stay at Pantai Hill Park. so basically Mid-Valley is my first shop destination *hehez*

the first shop i when to is FOS. hmm..FOS here is way much better compare the one you get to see in Kuching *booooooooo* MNG having a big sale here *drools* Vincci and Nose too!!! yesh i bought a pair of ballet-flat denim shoes *i love it!*
and same goes with the other outlets having a real big sale.. after that we pegi makan at Burger King (in Mid-Valley).. i lurpe the burgerrrrrrr ~not oil-ly at all..hehe. grill ba!

kakya mek orang pegi Jusco (dlam Mid-Valley juak) cos mumi ku mok shop baju. after that mek orang pegi Jusco food department cos mok beli makanan utk d stok dalam rumah.. yang pelik mumi ku beli penyapu dan mop, and a tong sampah kecik.hahhaaha! actually my sis don't have mop and penyapu so my mum get her one *lol* on my 2nd day we when to Time Square, Bukit Bintang area. nang my 1st time pakei LRT cos all of this while pakei teksi.. hehe! (ya nama orang Kuching sakai sik pandei pakei LRT.haha!) so here when i start to shop again.. btw. sampei sitok jak.. aku dah ke-tandusan idea utk crita dalam bm swak.. omg!! i should end for now.. hmm.so hard to blog in bm swak

says the diary,
Naotill then *muah*

next update!!

2008-06-27T17:44:00.013+08:00

the next *update* gonna be about food...
yes FOOD!!
basically about those places that i would suggest
a place you can consider to become your next choice of destination
*mebe this could give you some hint*
(especially when you get bored of the usual station you've been for a dine *hehe*)

stay tune for the update yet to come eh
SOON!!
*smile*

holissss! update

2008-06-25T14:33:00.021+08:00

at last this Semester has come to an END
after months of stress-ness
after months of worries
AND
after months of tiredness
after months
and months
of
preparing reports!!! like never ending *sigh*

*imagine 3 killing reports for two tough subject*

~especially Market Research Report 2 (SPSS data) the very tough one!
*tears*
and am now telling myself that am NOOOOTTTTTT going to take market research as my major
and am not going to become a marketing researcher even in the future to come!!!

<<<months months months>>>

months of heartache cause by assesment
weekly online quiz-es
and
read-up all those thick books
*tired eyes*

hmmp... somehow it brings a good outcomes at the end eh

*NaNa's start to smile with joy once more*

yeahhhhhh!!!
hhholisssss hOllisss for me
once again sleep like there's no other day
once again enjoy watching my current fave Chinese series Forensic Heroes 2 on AOD
*a series that worth time to watch eh*
~can't wait for the next release of episode 28 tonight *hehe*

*awh!! how much i enjoy sleeping eh*

i shall stop now :)

till then

realizations

2008-06-22T22:23:00.022+08:00

the day when i realise am getting older.. and so yea..this year it falls on Sunday.. i don't exactly celebrate it since finals is up and am too old to celebrate *smile* anyway i really thank those peeps who still remember my birthday falls on 22nd of June..and who send me wishes to me phone, through messages, facebook, friendster so on.. but few don't seems to remember like my old time forever bestest friend since high school, Miss Wilvin Yeo -if you happen to read this i would say how could you forget!! *sigh*

as usually after church.. almost every week my dad will bring us all family for lunch at this restaurant+cafe called 'Golden Cafe' which situated near to 'Cold Storage, Green Height' hmm.. if you know where is it about.. to make it short it's just right opposite of Ming Khiong Garden (the way to the Airport) nothing much am going to say further here *smile* the only thing i would say i like the food...it's nice and yummie too!!!~ basically from fast food till it's cooking dishes *thumbs up*

**7pm, June 22 2008**

later at night my family and i when to the newly open KFC situated few shop lot before 'Choice Premier Supermarket' to celebrate my birthday..its pretty pack and much people come to eat there and i can see how hyper my little nephew get's when he see lots of people (i guess he enjoy happening place *giggles*) so my mum and my eldest sister get to place an order on this family fest set of chicken consists of EIGHT *i think.. lol. can't remember* KFC fried chicken *yum yum* with a set of big salad and a set of big mashpotatoes and drink too
~awh! i forever loving it eh *giggles* yesh i enjoy munching the crispy spicey chicken too *lolz*

|THE END OF THE STORY|

finals syndrome

2008-06-17T11:24:00.010+08:00

mode: Finals syndrome

******

MKT3001 Market Research
|one paper is over|

******

|another yet more to come|

MKT1002 Consumer Behaviour

upcoming event: can't wait for it to be over!!!!
looking forward to go to kl this early of July 4 till 22

the you

2008-06-10T23:34:00.011+08:00

i always belief there's always sunshine after the rain..
you once watch me cry when i fall.
you happen to lend me your ear when am down.
you tell me to be strong and tell me to forget all those things that doesn't worth for me to care.
you make me smile when i thought i will never smile again.
every girls wish to be with a cutie or even a hottie (and you are counted as one cutie)
i heard many saying you are cute (i agree!! *smile*)
i shall say..yes you are! you are always the cutest from inner and so as physically..
but i left it behind once after he come into my life cos the heart can't keep two..
but things doesn't last long.. i guess all the things happen begin and end with a reason.
i try to deny what my heart tells me now (cos am not so sure).
even i myself not so sure what does it mean..cos all i know now i don't want to get hurt and i want to live in a happy life which promising me that it worth it .. no one says it would be easy. but if you get the chance, take it cos we never know..who knows it come once in a lifetime

thursday thoughts

2008-05-29T22:18:00.012+08:00

today is Thursday
time: 10.18pm

am bored!
and sempat think of what are the list of things i want NOW!
i WISH
i WANT
i wish and want

i wish final is over
i wish and hope my Market Research report will be fine
i wish i got lots lots of cash now
i want a new pair of heels
i want another new pair of minis
i want a new phone *cos am bored with my N6288* XD
my hair is getting longer & i so need to do touch-up on my hair color
i want to play games 24/7 like
DOTA or any other games besides that *am stil learning**
MOST of all!!!
and, i need 'word of wisdom'
i want to concentrate more for my finals eh
its around the corner!!
But But But
what am i doing ber-Online
*shushushushu*

i guess i'll shall stop now
tada!! till then *smile*

the end.. 10.29pm

report sickness

2008-05-21T06:50:00.013+08:00

*not updating at the meantime*

*Market Research Final Report is in progress*

AND

*FINALs is up soon*

if there was no tomorrow

2008-05-19T17:58:00.006+08:00

and am into this chinese song 'ru guo mei you ming tian' in english which mean 'if there was no tomorrow'. basically this song is a real sad song.

times has past and still here i stand aimlessly on my own with no regrets (but at times i do feel like i couldn't even lead myself up) i guess this are the only best way one can do right peeps?? *smile* all i want now is.. try to smile to the world even when it never seems so right..pretend like as if nothing happen and always belif all the things hapen begin and end with a reason *smile* putting a smile to others is still me :D ~hmm.no one seems to know the bitterness i've been through.. oh well what is past is past.. no point to talk about it either eh :) basically am hoping to put a smile to others all the time!!! and not to bring sadness (~ if that possible.hehe!) and i belief with God grace and strength in me i can overcome everything that is not possible *smile*

ANYWAY..... so here it goes the translation of the chinese song into english..

enjoy reading the song eh...

Title: Ru Guo Mei You Ming Tian (If there was no tomorrow)

Don't talk, don't say anything
Your lying gently on my chest
Holding your hands tightly
I don't want to give up
Because we were once in love

After giving my hopes and I still can't succeed
How can I continue tomorrow
I don't wanna lose you
I can see your every smile
Its flawless and so perfect
If there is no tomorrow

Your heart hurts, because of loving me too deep
Life is making me lose
You know
My heart doesn't want give up
I will always remember forever,
that you will always love me

After giving my hopes and I still can't succeed
How can i continue tomorrow
I don't wanna lose you
I can see your every smile
Its flawless and so perfect
If there is no tomorrow

I want to tell you lightly that I will never forget you
In my heart, there's still a place of our memories of loving each other

After giving my hopes and I still can't succeed
How can i continue tomorrow
I don't wanna lose you
I can't change anything but who can i blaim
One tear of yours is heartbreaking

We don't have tomorrow

After giving my hopes and I still can't succeed
How can I continue tomorrow
I don't wanna lose you
I can see your every smile
It's flawless and so perfect

We don't have tomorrow

If there was no tomorrow..

the faith in me

2008-05-16T13:29:00.005+08:00

AUSTRALIA HILLSONGS lyrics

third time after a week

2008-04-30T12:42:00.025+08:00

hmm. hair cut?? yes again!! this is the 3rd time after a week of me visiting the hairdresser.hehe!

and once again i cut my hair for the second time after i did a real trim-ming on my hair after 8months.. ok the first time was i 'ka pok' my hair cause the hairdresser says my hair is very thick..
hmm.so i give up keeping 'china doll' haircut since a few says i look like one little girl with a dolly looking hairdo *omg* so mer cut it 'nipis' and after that i realise how thick my hair is before *smile*
and i feel my head a little light-er after that *hehe*

*few hours later*
i did some treatment and so-called straightening...

* after a week later*
and yesterday i when to the salon again*again** cutting layer on the front part of my hair.. ~it looks real short to me now *sigh*

*current*
third time after a week

passionate?

2008-04-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

how patience can i be? i just had an interview with this parent of this little boy 7 years of age for a post of 'personal tutor'.. and i start to realise how patience i can be with that little Amos!? yea if i get that job am so going to be a tutor for Amos 3 times a week.. that is pretty hectic i would say! sitting with little Amos for 15minutes i can finalize that it is pretty a hard job and it takes time to brush he's attention to sit and to hear me.. he is okay it just that he couldn't sit still at the same position for 15minutes!! yea.. he get real restless after that.. but well, am still as patience like i am calling him and try my very best to catch Amos attention to hear what i taught him... and i would END this by saying it is not a easy task eh!

not a animal lover!

2008-04-19T17:53:00.003+08:00

am not an animal lover.. especially when come to dogs.. but somehow this dog is cute *smile*

another rambles

2008-04-19T14:09:00.010+08:00

am currently into Chinese song.. though i only understand a little of mandarin and can speak a few words of mandarin. i just love all those jiwang chinese song *i heart them all*
and so yeah!

the clock shows 2:11pm

*surprisingly*
i feel damn hungry around this time
BUT
am so not going to fill-up my hungry tummy with anything
*korok korok*
*arghhhhhh*
hopefully am getting more and more skinny
*i love it*

the clock shows 2:20pm

think what should i do now *think*
my Consumer Behaviour final report
*click window*
*search*
*distracted and melancong to other sites*

*DAY DREAMING*

November 12, 2007
the memories is still fresh in my mind

*a month has past*
and
i wonder...
*take my phone*
*think for a second*
*click 'Create new message'*
*click 'EXIT'*
*thought for awhile*
*hmm*
*decide not to send a text*
*word play in mind 'let time tell them all'*

the clock shows 2:35pm

*sleepy*
*buzz with report again*
*yawn*

brand conscious

2008-04-18T10:35:00.024+08:00

when we talk about brand.. i don't know who might agree with me 100% that brand is VERY important and it do build one's confidence eh!!! and i wonder how many would go for stuff with a brand??? i always the brand conscious person *wide smile* yet still i have not much cash $$$$$$ *sigh* cause am still a happily undergraduate student *tsk tsk* ~ still spending parents cash!!

hmmm.. was browsing this design handbags outlet on the web.. oohhhh my... am so in love with this Gucci Signature Large Tote (Coffee) bags.. a perfect looking bag and i feel so redundant of myself cause why oh why am still studying *!!%??* i should have not taking up degree and should have work after i complete my advance diploma back in early 2006*haiz!!!!!!*

AND, what caught my eyes is Bonia bags TOO..what i like most of this brand is the quality, the texture and most of all its sophisticated style in it itself *smile*

i know i own one middle in size Bonia handbag which given by my eldest sister *smile* ~ as you can see through the pic.hehe! and and and after since then am so into brandy bags.. and i WISH to have more more of brandy bags as many... if it is possible!?! *winks* ~not only that... even for the heels and errm...same goes with the outfits. isn't that sound so bad!? *giggling*

thursday morning

2008-04-17T08:05:00.012+08:00

another day.. another week.. another month
feels so exhausted but still with wise mind okay!
i just couldn't be bothered with what around me..
i stop hang-out with friends till midnight for movies or even clubs (even during weekends)
i enjoy being the old me now, who spend most of my entire days at home *seriously*
~ cause i find no other good reason for me to loiter around
*like what my dadi says no reason*

hmm.. its time for me to be more serious and not 'ber-online'
its time for me to do my report proposal for Consumer Behaviour and not forgetting the most killing subject in Marketing major Market Research
*arghhh*
yes.. 6 more subject to go for me and i'll be graduating
*wide smile*
~ yea wish me all the best for my final year eh

12:15am

2008-04-16T00:13:00.009+08:00

its 12:15am now.. and am still awake! my eyes are tired but i can't even put myself to sleep.. many things played in mind.. two more major final report to come *sweat* its pretty scary to hear me saying this and i hope i can do it.. yes nana can do it eh!! *giggles*

just got back from Consumer Behavior lecture about 3hours ago.. one plain boring class i would say! *keke* was sitting and pasting my small sexy ass in this not so big yet not so small room either *hehe* but just one middle size room i should say for 2 hours hearing Mr Alan lecture!

the sound of the air-con in my room could be heard and the sound of me tapping my finger on my lappy softly could also be heard.. yea i just got me lappy a month ago *smile* what happen to me old pc??? oohhh.. still alive tho'... but resting peacefully at me sitting room with full of dust all over on top and side of the pc ~i 'buang batu' with me lovely old aspire pc *keke* hmm.. guess i'll better stop for now eh... till then *sign off*

Sunday, 2:21pm update

2008-03-30T14:21:00.013+08:00

hmm.. am still feeling so sick!!*sad*
coughing nearly about a week by now..
feel so uneasy and distress BUT i still can shop in town with me big sis and baby nephew
~isn't that funny!!? *giggles*
and i so want to get that pair of slim cut jeans at Zerlina *drools* and yea i get a pair of that new skinny jeans in late evening *smile*
~me with short mini and slim cut jeans

thought's of today:
i'm feeling so sick

assignment fever

2008-03-24T11:39:00.013+08:00

After nearly about a month then i get to *update* me blogging!!
What i hate most is to fall sick during assignments time *sigh*
What a day for me!?! *sobber* Been so busy lately with classes.. assignments, quiz and etc *sweat* And, am hoping for the best this year in my studies and graduate by end of this year and start working like what my dadi wish i can *smile*
Another day i will never complain of anything!
Haha

let it go for the best

2008-03-06T12:18:00.004+08:00

i know i deserve a better and the best
*smile*

p/s: thanks to my dear friends for the well good advice.
i appreciate it *most*
especially, to aaron thanks for the advice
you're the best!

lots of love,
Na
*hugs*

that is what i want to say

2008-02-28T11:42:00.013+08:00

its 11:43am now.. feel so bored cause still having and so called enjoying me holidays! yea class start on the 5 of March.. and am still not ready for anything yet! what is wrong with me eh? this is so not me.. *wake up na* *wake up* i was NEVER as weak like this before but am feeling so weak right now *sigh* the confidents in me are totally lost.. i tend put all the blaim to myself for nagging and take things so easy and not appreciate everything i do. yayyy...never missed day dreaming all day long and enjoying myself in my own WORLD.. i'm ok friends! thanks for caring

Wednesday, 7:49pm

2008-02-27T19:47:00.005+08:00

after been not onlining for 3 days i've thought of updating me blog.. oh ya am still new with blogspot.. and am seriously have no idea what to blog.. hmm.

if you MUST have the last WORD

2008-02-22T00:41:00.002+08:00

if you MUST have the Last WORD, make it 'SORRY'.. if you are ANGRY, DON'T SIN by nursing your GRUDGE.. DON'T let the sun GO DOWN with you STILL ANGRY ~ try to GET OVER it as QUICKLY as possible

-Ephesians 4:26 The Living BIBLE says...
ANGER is DESTRUCTIVE. PHYSICIANS KNOW IT. MARRIAGE COUNSELORS KNOW IT. LAW ENFORCEMENT OFFICERS KNOW IT. ANGER CAN CAUSE ULCERS, MIGRAINES AND HEART ATTACKS. IT CAN DESTROY MARRIAGE AND RELATIONSHIPS. OUR PRISONS ARE FULL OF ANGRY MEN AND WOMEN WHO HAD TO HAVE THE LAST WORD AND RESORTED TO VIOLENCE

that is why GOD warned us NOT to HOLD any GRUDGE even when you SUFFER it in SILENCE and make you TURN a COLD SHOULDER to NEIGHBOR, COWORKER, or anyone ~those anger eats you like a cancer.. it's INSATIABLE. it NEEDs regular feeding of HATRED and BITTER-EMOTIONs that is the antithesis of God's loving and kindness. its for our OWN good that God asks us to TREAT one another with Love, Honor and Respect. God knows we get ANGRY SOMETIMES, but He give us Self-Control and the WORDs to calm us down which is , 'I'm SORRY'..

are you ANGRY? Do you feel indignation at the way you been treated by others? try your best to let it GO.. you'll NEVER be avble to look FORWARD with those things that God has for you if you're still looking at the PAST.

or HAVE you ever been HURT or HURT someone-else? ask for APOLOGIZE and GO ON with your LIFE.. They may NOT FORGIVE you, BUT God WILL. this is return in the WORD of God.. PRAYER? Pray for those BRIDGES you know that NEED building AND ask God help you to BUILD a few TODAY.

each one of us in this world has our own weaknesses.. i cant even say am perfect cause i know am not and there's only ONE person who is perfect that is our big dadi in heaven that is God. i may not know how far and how bad each of your life.. i may not know what you been through.. all the ups and down.. and all the things that make you feel upset and sad.. BUT remember don't hold the grudge in you..let the burden in you free and let God take it all. me as one living soul in this world been through all those bitterness in life and i fall many times (only God knows how hard am going through life) at times i feel so distress and often my emotions takes over control me when everything fails.

6:32pm

2008-02-21T18:26:00.008+08:00

another day before it end to another weekend.. was talking on the phone with my sista grace an hour ago telling her am feeling so EMO ~goodness me!! am clueless and aimlessly..ponder and ponder.. sadness.feel so redundant, feel so stupit.. CONFUSION HURTs *sobber*

Back!!

2008-02-20T12:50:00.009+08:00

after few months am back once again blogging.. do visit and catch up with me entries if you feel like reading it eh!!! am not forcing anyone to even read up and.... i wonder who would even bother to read up with any update in me blog eh.hmm

rambles of the day

2008-02-11T03:02:00.003+08:00

the sound of I Promise by Stacie Orrico played in mind. a very meaningful song..worth to hear it tho’.. it has been for ages after i last blog in Xanga and now I start to get active once again BUT in friendster blog with NaNa rambles..hmm! ohya my previous friendster blogging was purposely deleted done by me.. basically the reason is I thought to start a NEW one and delete the past memories that doesnt worth me to think over it. I always known as the girl who use blog by my close friends to let out my emotion..yes I AM and still now cause I find this are the bestest way for oneself to express what’s in your heart. some might say what’s the point of keeping everything to yourself without saying it straight to the person ~omg!that is so shy for me to express everything face-to-face.. I seriously have no GUTS!! Surprisingly a very friendly person like me turn out as timid like this and tend to hide myself in my own shell when come to express emotions. Time past and go BUT am still the old fragile me.. a person who forever always fall into tears easily and who tend to be very secretive most of time and wish to be care and valued by her love ones.. very picky (sometime) and can just ignore a person un-intentionally when she’s hurt or upset.. that is when a person start to realise she’s such a proud girl (in BM called it ‘ngegeh’).. but somehow am patience enough, i care and i easily forgive and forget though how bad a person treated me.

Love

2008-02-07T07:27:00.002+08:00

Love?
Love is not how long you have been together, but it's how you understand each other
Love is also not how long you get to know each other, but its how you valued and care one another, and accept their weaknesses forgive them for him/her mistake

Love is kind and tender, when there's trust between two soul
Love is true and never leaves the heart, so if you dont love him/her now, you didnt love he/she then

Love?
Its impossible to fall out of it, love is a powerful emotion, that once it envelops you, it does not depart.

When i saw you am so afraid to talk to you.When i talked to you i was afraid to hold you.When i hold you i was afraid to love you.Now that i love you im afraid to lose you.. this is when you start to realise you're in love

i WISH am stil seventeen

2008-01-23T01:33:00.002+08:00

the thought of how i wish am still young..wish am still seventeen...missing the all those younger days.. no worries not much things to think about beside enjoy the best session laughs with closes buddies in school.. how much i miss those sweet days back in high school.. miss my old school friends (that i have not seen for ages).. my bestfriends (thank God we still are bestfriend til today, wilvin and coreen *i heart u both too much*) missing the the school, Sugarbun!!!!, the school hall, the teachers, the school canteen 'chicken rice' *yummy* st teresa's toilet which is lousy yet so smelly *keke* whatelse?? i got too many to describe eh.. but somehow when i start to recall over it.. there's sweet days and bad days. SWEET DAYs will always remain and make you smile when think of those stupit things we do in class, tuition, outside school etc..and i will always remember this..me never miss going late to school *keke* 7:15AM there you go!!! seeing the young NaNa got tangkap by the prefect for being late *tsk tsk*

wish upon the star

2008-01-20T03:17:00.006+08:00

have you ever thought of how you wish you can read someone mind and you could also dig what actually in their heart? and have you ever missed someone so badly but you just cant do anything about it?? the only thing you can do is just wait and see hoping that miracle do happen.. and have you ever feel so distress and how much it kills your soul when you so want it so much but you just cant have it now and it turns out the other way round which is so sad a close friend told me i need to be more patience and calm down myself and pray more to God and ask HIM to give us the patience and calmness to overcome this situation.. there’s one verse in the word of God that tells me and give me faith to be strong and be patience. and i start to realise (all of this while) i pampered myself too much and often i want things to be in my way!

July 13, 2007

2007-07-13T08:27:00.010+08:00

Recalling what I've did back in the past 4 months, it makes me wonder have i not put so much effort in my studies and have God actually there by my side most till now and then.. yesh i belif God has..but it was me who doesn't take seriously of He's presence

Dear God, am your most useless child who just not worth to be call a good daughter of yours pray that may you could give me wisdom, faith, patience, to act humbly, obedient to you and so to my parents and also to those, like my love ones, friends and relatives.
Forgive my sin in the past and even presence.. Lord teach me to become a good follower of yours.. Bless me in everything i do and in my studies.. give me wisdom and keep my faith strong in you and
let your mercy falls upon me.. guide me protect me. thank you Lord. AMEN!

the diary :)

October 29, 2009

the little voices that whisper to my ears

update la

):

to him

an update! hehe

to you, you and you

sometime

i hate to fall sick part 2

i hate to fall sick!

hard decision

march 5

the exam

My Marks

MGT2002 Managing Organisations

MKT2001 Promotion Management

another issue

when i was seventeen

baking a Carrot Cake

my chinese new year!

if only...

reminiscing 2008

let's sing!!

gladiators shoes!! what say you?

MGT2002

baking a chocolate brownies

assignment again!!!

happy new year!

before 2008 comes to an end

wishing you all

darling sis 22nd

i think

yeah, that's probably it

i can bake.. not bad!

the diary been dismiss for no update

so damn sickening

my sister is heading back home

Sometimes

In My Prayer

i think i'm weird

to florence dear, happy birthday!

sunday blue

tagged

I'm tagged by Wei Khee, so here it goes:

disappointed

finals is finally over!! overrrrr.. yehhhh!!

i should be nerding

to you

i just couldn't simplify more

to the you

is this what you call bestfriend?

never did i never complain

when motion reaches its limit

just too lazy

tantrum

MGT1200

the path

another entry for today

to my bestfriend, yennie dear!

update of vent part 1

Assignments *again!!!*

nothing more than to complain

i hate Acer *gRrr*

sorry for the absence

*updAte*

Pringles is waving at me! XD

Vent my dissappointment

ohh nana why are you so LAZy XD

random thoughts

hen zek eh!

Its Sunday

Assignments *again*

am back home!

to sum my kl trip (part 1)

next update!!

holissss! *update*

realizations

finals syndrome

the you

Assignments again!!!

i hate Acer gRrr

updAte

Assignments again

holissss! update

Sunday, 2:21pm update